real life

Friday I found out that an old friend of mine from high school was killed in Iraq. His name was C. G. Haight. He was liked by everyone and played on my football team.

After graduation, like most people I lost cotact with nearly everyone I graduated with. This included C. G. He was a great football player and I hear a great father and husband. He leaves behind a wife, and a 10 month old son. I read were C. G. left to go into Iraq onyl after his son had been born for 6 weeks. If you are reading this please pray for C. G. and his family.

The title of this comes from a song, it is a country song, called real life. real life begins for us young when we find out about love, death, hate, pain, etc.
so real life strikes back when we loose people we know and love. we all live in a comfort zone, thinking tomorrow, everyone that is here will be there. In a certain way they are (spirtually) but physically a lot of people that are here today will not be here tomorrow. So if you have loved one's and friends please let them know you love them!

May God bless us all, and guide us so we can love each day as if it were our last! Thank you God for all the things you have shown to me and given me. I pray that everyday I can serve you more and more and become and more loving husband and father!

Thank you Amy and Emily for being the sweet wonderful things tha you are!

Merry Christmas!!!

I just wanted to post, and say Merry Christmas to everyone! Thank you God for sending Jesus Christ to die on the cross for all our sins. You are truly wonderful!

Merry Christmas to everyone!

....ahhh last day of work....

Well today is the last day of work from me this week. I have to say I am very excited. I get to spend a lot of time with my family and get some me time as well. Hopefully I can sue this time to catch up on some things, do a good bit of reading, and software development.

So far everything is moving forward on the rentacoder.com work and forgivable.net site and software development. God has truly blessed me.

Amy's birthday was wonderful, we really did all the celebrating on Sat. and Sunday, so yesterday was kinda of an easy going day. She came home and relaxed! Which is good because my wonderful baby needs that!

Anyway thank you God for everything!

Amy's Birthday!

Happy Birthday my wonderful wife! It is so wonderful to be able to celebrate such a wonderful day with you. I am truly thankful for being able to be here for this. You bring me so much happines, warth, affection, satisfaction, etc., etc., etc.

You are my summer rain, my sunlight, the reason why I drive myself to be the best I can be. God is first, and then you come second. You are my everything, and I hope that today on your birthday, you know how much I love you!

I love you my wonderful angel, I love to look into your eyes and watch a smile come upon your face. I love you softly rub my hand across your check, and slightly kiss your lips. I love the way you look at me as we lay down together. I love everything about you! Thank you Amy for being everything that you are, and bringing out everything that I can be.

I love you! And may God bless you beyond your own imigantation.
Love,
Me!

Christmas

Some of the most wonderful thoghts and memmories I have are from past Christmas times. This year is the first one were I have my own family to celebrate Christmas with. I am sure it will be filled with great times, and kinda want time to just crawl, slower than it ever has during these wonderful times. I have a lot of time off from work and so I will get to spend a lot fo time with Emily and my wife!

Anyway thank you God for all the things you have given me and my family. And thank you for all the chances and abilites you have given me. I know that I am an example of God's grace. God allows me to live, learn, make mistakes, and then come back aorund to him. Thank you God for being there for me!

I love you God! Thank you Jesus for dying on the cross for my sins and thank you for letting have the days and nights on this earth during this life! I love you God!
May God bless us all!

my best friend

I firgured out something last night. For the past few months and when anyone ask me, I have said the Amy is my best friend. She is my wife, and it is true she is. But what I did not realize is that God in many ways is not only My God, savior, provider, but is also my best friend.

You see God loves me, wants what is best for me, knows me better than I know myself, and listen to my problems and walks me through them. You can't have a better friend than God!

Anyway that thought was very cool and I really enjoyed it! Thank you God for this wonderful day, and for being there for me all the time, even though at times I am not there for you! Thank you Jesus Christ for dying on the cross for MY sins.
May God bless us all!

forgivable.net

So I am in a big research mode for the software development that I am doing which will be released through forgivable.net.

I am doing a lot of research in P2P, and XML. My first software project that I want to release is an Outlook Add-in package for Christians to use. It will be based on XML technology (hopefully, depends on what I can find).

At any rate, it is a slow process but worth it because the goal is to create software for Christian to use to further the spread of the word of God.
Anyway, if you are reading this please pray for me, and for what is going on. If it is not God's will then I hope it will not take off!

Thank you God for all the chances and abilities you have given me. I hope I can learn more and more everyday how to use both of them for you God! May God bless us All!

Just found another great Christian website. It is called challies.com and challies.com web slogan is:

Putting the "fun" in Fundamentalism




anyway it is an overall great site, with great information. Check it out!

I read yesterday from Matthew, were Jesus talked about how we must humble ourselfs like children and come to God.

I have thought about this a lot, and Children (speaking from looking at my daughter) our truthful, always reading to learn, and just love to 'be'. I hope that everyday I can learn more and more how to humble myself so that I can accept the word of God everyday, and accept what God wants me to do each day.

One of the things that I am working on, is to learn how to love my nieghbor and be more accepting of others. I did not realize it, but I need to do a better job at this. God has been using my wife to try and reach me for the past few weeks on this. It finally hit me last night!

Thank you God for this wonderful day! May God bless us all!

I have launched the site forgivable software. I am currently working on the projects that the site talks about.

hopefully, with God guiding me, I can develop qauilty tools that Christian computer users can use. We will see as time goes on!

thank you God for the chance!

It seems that the Turning point program, and Dr. Jerimiah has become a major part for my Christian life.
I was listening to him again today, and he was talking about how God does not like luke warm people.

I pray that I can learn how to become and be more and more like a burning fire for Jesus!
I want to have total pashion for Christ!

Anyway, my little daughter is sick today, my wife is having to stay home and take her to the doctor. I am just truly blessed with those two.

I know at times I get upset, and my wife gets upset with me. But like this morning, she just wanted me to hold her and kiss all over her! We had a little fight last night. No big thing, but still. Anyway it is wonderful how God works in our lives.

Thank you Jesus! Thank you so much for everything! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

Storms.

When storms come in, and surrond us, knock over everything and break us. After they are gone, we are left seeing what all needs fixed.

Today I was on my way into work and was listening to turning point. A great show. Anyway, Dr. Jerimiah was talking about his battle with Cancer. He was focusing on how people, when faced with a storm just want to give up, call it quits.

The point he was trying to get across is that God using storms in are lives to show us what needs repaired. To bring us back around to what is important. And then God is there, because he is the only one who can rebuild after the storm.

Dr. Jerimiah refernced Paul, when Paul asked God 3 times to remove the thorn from his side. God replied "May Grace is suffient enough" and with that Paul was thankful for his thron.

Thank you God for all the wonderful things you have blessed my family amd me with. I pray that everyday I can learn more and more about you and that everyday my faith and love with grow stronger and stronger!

May God bless us All!

Well this past weekend, was filled with wonderful things! Even though my daughter is at her Maw-Maw's until tonight, I still have had a wonderful weekend.

I had a great talk with God yesterday. I say talk, because, well I am sure when talking and praying that sometimes with you (just like me) you doing while walking along.

Anyway I just had a wonderful time, expressing my love, and confessing my need for God!

Thank you Heavenly Father for everything! Thank you Jesus Christ for everything! Thank you Holy Spirit for everything! May God bless us All!

Well it has been one wondeful week! God has truly blessed me with a lot of things. I have had a great first project experince at rentacoder.com. I completed the project and pay for it is on the way.

I must admit, though I pay a little to much attetion to that website. I pray, that I do not give to much of my time to that site. I know I may be over thinking that side of it, but it is easy to get carried away with something new. Plus, you get to bid on jobs, and that adds an extra angle of excitement to the whole experience.
At any rate, another thing that I have been thinking hard about in my family and I not being in a church. I know that the real Church is us, and it begins at the home, but I am to blame for not pushing for my family and I to be in a church.
So please if anyone is reading pray for my family and me that we might find a good church to go to, and get up and go to it.

I am so thankful that God allows me to mess up, go off and try new things, etc. I know that God loves all of us, and is just waiting for each of us to turn to him! So God I turn to you, and say thank you for everything! And ask for help in my walk.

Thank you God for everything! May God bless us All!

P.S. And let us not forget that as Christmas gets closer, always keep with you what we are celebrating! The coming of the Lord Jesus Christ!

The 3 C's of a good marriage. I wrote on this a little yesterday, and heard the rest of the sermon today.

I pray that God guides Amy and me, so we can have the 3 C's in our marriage. They are: Chirst, Commetment, & Communication.

These are the essitnal things for the base of any good marriage. And all of these things are backed up with scripture. I wish I had a notpad and pen so I could post the scripture too, but I know Paul wrote a lot about such things in Esphians.

May God bless us all! And thank you God for everything! (As my little daughter says!)

Well today marks the 2nd month of my wife and I being married.

On the way in, I was listening to the radio. It was the turning point broadcast I listen too every morning on 90.7 FM.

Anyway, Dr. Jerimiah was talking about how the good ship marriage sails on 3 C's. Now the firsrt C that was discussed was Commetment. How true that is, being in a new marriage I have not seen all the dips and highs yet, but I can say that looking from good marriage examples that is always there.

The next was compasion, compasion for one another, and giving in to one another. Having this is a must.

The next thing I heard that was discussed was that the best marriages start from God being the foundation. And this is my focus for the day, I plan on praying and finding out how I can, and my wife and learn how to put God at the center of Our life. Our because it is no longer mine or hers, it is our.

Anyway I must say, that I am very thankful for this day, and for the past two months. I have learned a lot about myself and about marriage. I have a long way to go, and pray that everyday I submit myself more and more to God, so that I can be the husband and father I need to be!

Thank you Jesus, thank you for this wonderful day! Thank you God for all things! Thank you Holy Spirit for the guidance that you have given me!

May God bless us all!

God has truly blessed me. I have a wonderful wife, and daughter, and soon to be new born baby!

My wife is really suportive of me. She is truly my better half. She knows me better than I do, and thank God is understanding of me, and fogives me with her love.

I could not ask God for a better wife, and I could not picture a more perfect wife for me than Amy!
Thank you God for this wonderful day, and such a wonderful family!

Another blessing that God has giving me, is a chance at rentacoder.com. I am working on my first project from there to make a little extra cash. I develop software in VB 6.0, VB.net, Java, JSP, ASP, XML, and Database work.

Anyway I truly am blessed and I am thankful for the chances I have been giving!

Thank you so much God, thank you Jesus Christ for dying for my sins, and thank you Holy Spirit for guiding me! May God bless us All!

God is truly wonderful! I stopped on my way out of work today, and openned up were our new insurance paid for my wife's visit to the docotor. We were not for sure that they would. I know God had a hand in it and made sure it did!

Thank you so much God!

Anyway on top of that, my wonderful little Daughter Emily was awake when I left and she gave me hug's and kisses along with my wife!
I love having those two in my life. I am so thankful that God has trusted me with the responsibility of making sure they have everything they need. And now we have our new baby on it's way!

I am sure the road ahead of us will have bumps and dips, but as long as we stayed focused on God, and helping each other then I know that through God we will make it!

May God bless us All!

My mother the other day at thanksgiving told my wife that since we have a new family it is time for us as one big family to mkae our own traditions. One of the one's I would like to start is read the Christmas story while all of us are together.

I of course mean the one from Luke chapter 2. I heard it read tonight, and it just made me smile and sent chills up and down my spine. I mean I feel moved when I hear that and I want my children to beraised up to were the bible is something that is read from often, and Christmas and our lives are centered around God.

Anyway, I just had those wonderful moments on the way home and then I had some wonderful people waiting on me when I got here. My smiling and loving wife, and of course my sweet little daughter.
Anyway I must say at this point, that God is wonderful!

May God bless us all!

A lot of times, I find myself dealing with negative thoughts. Not like I have them towards things, but I let things worldy things get to me sometimes.

I know I am human, faulty all the way. I know that through God's grace I am saved through Jesus Christ.
Still I forget sometimes how wonderful God is, and how much God loves us. I know it would seem like with all the love God shows us that no one could forget it at times. And it is not so much I forget it, it is I just do not recall it at times were I let the things of this world get to me.

So I battle with things for a little while, then God comes back and and puts me were I need to be. It is truly wonderful, how God loves us. And I am thankful for all the things that God has taught me.

One of my prayers these days is for God to teach me how to put God in the center of my life. For God to teach me how to worship him better, and for God to show me how to love others as God loves me.

It is just truly wonderful that God loves me so much that he allows me to miss up!

Thank you God!

It is so wonderful how God blesses us with people that love us. People that care for us, and pray for us. I know a lot of times, we take for granted such wonderful blessings. Like today, the minster that married my wife and I, came by and chatted with us. He wanted to check on us, brought us a book to read. Just let's me know that God is always working on us, and always watching out for us.

Another great example is my parents and my wfies parents. They check on us everyday! I am just so thankful for such a wonderful God!

And of course the biggest fan of my life is my wife. To let you know a little further about what type of person she is, I had to beg her just now to stay out of work tomorrow. She is the one who feels bad and I had to beg her to saty home and rest. She told me that she is not one to lay out. She is such a wonderful blessing in my life.

I just want to say how thankful I am, that God allows me to live in a place were people love me, and he surronds me with people who care for me, and what I like the most people I can care and love for!

May God bless us all!

One of the things I deal with a lot in my field is change and chance for something new.

Change is something that will always be in everything, but the chance at something new factor I am talking about is new job positions. The alure of something new, to make 5-10 more dollars an hour, etc. The excitement of being hired to do it all!

You see I work in the IT field. I am currently doing project management work, and development work. I can do networking, development, management.

So anyway, there is always a temptation to try and 'push' to get better, more, higher paying at the turn of every year, or every quarter. I must not think of myself as being single anymore, though because of my wife, and kids. This of course plays a big factor, another is that I am trying to do what God wants me too (how often I do fail though!)

But still I am tempted to try and push my resume to get something new, to go to a new job, to make a few thousand more. I guess it is the world, the world that clings to our desires and worries, and emotions that works on you.

What gets me is that I am very happy were I work. Most likely the happiest I have been at a job and still sometimes I find myself testing the waters. I know God knows that I am thankful for my job, and I am happy here. I know I must trust God more, and at the end of every day I do trust God more and more.

May God bless us all!

I did not last night read with my family like I had planned. I got home, and my wife's sister was over for dinner. We all had a great time making the house a mess.

Come 7:30 me, my wife, and our daughter went and laid down. I went sleep and bang! I rolled over and saw the clock. It read '4:14 AM'. WOW! I thought to myself, I had knocked out. So hopefully we can make a point tonight to read.

I know this weekend and most likely every weekend until the start of '04 my family and I will be really busy. My wifes work Christmas party is this Sat. I have to work next Sat. and my work's Christmas party is then so it is going to be busy busy!

Weekend after that is my wife's b-day (22nd) and then Christmas!!!

Anyway my point is, things can over run us, and take up all of our days and nights. We must always make a point to involve God in everything we do, or it is in vain.

Thank you God for everything! You are so wonderful and deserve all the praise, power, and glory!

May God bless us all!

I love this time of year. It is my first Christmas season with my new family. I am really enjoying planning Christmas, decorating, getting with family etc.

It is a fun time of year. It is real easy to, for us to forget what this time of year is about. It is easy for us to get commercialized and into the season of buying. We must not forget the this is the celebratation of the birth of Jesus Christ. Our Lord and Savior!

So when you are busy buying and walking through the malls say a little pray for those who can't, and for those who are in pain. And always keep God near you and in your heart's and minds!

May God bless us all!

Last night I read with my family from Psalms 127-128. I heard that these are a pair of 'twin' psalms. The meanings and message are kinda of crossed.

Anyway they are about how having a family is a blessings from God, that how having children are blessings from God and that God watches over and provides for his children.

Two thing's I get out of this, one is how much God cherishes us. God considers children as blessings, as his children then we are blessed and always watched over. The second is the fact of how blessed I am through my wife and kids. It is truly wonderful to come home to "I love you honey" or "I love you daddy"

At any rate I must state that God is truly wonderful. Hopefully my family and I can continue to read together every night.

May God bless us all!

I just found a great little site called: whatisthis.com I have not had a lot of time to review it totally but it has a great design and great flow to the site.

It also looks like it has great information about Christian life in general. Check it out and may God bless us all!

Something that I am trying to do more and more each week with my family is to turn off the TV and read from the bible together. I know right now my wife is pregnant and so she get tired early.

She usually goes to bed around 7-9 PM CST. So I am trying to do this about 3 times a week. Trying to make it part of everyone's life. I mean this approach is to get Emily used to it and hopefully she will come to expect it to happen. Also if you push to much then you achieve oposite of your goal.

Anyway please pray for my family, we are a young family, and we are really trying to instill good quailites and traditions. Since we are a young family we are former our traditions. I hope and pray that reading the bible and learning about God every week come become one of the many good traditions in our little family!

I love you God, and thank you for everything!

The start of new things is always exciting. It is when the glitter and gloss of the new thing wears off, that's when you can see if you really enjoy something.

I recently have been giving a new project at work. I really started on it last week, but I was only in for 2 days last week so that really was just to get use to everything. Right everything is great because it is about creating new things, reviewing old things, and working to bring something together. I do have a fear in the back of my mind that once this is over the old job / duties will creep back and then I have a fear of getting bored.

The fear is really geared towards "I don't want to act like I am not thankful". I know God know's my heart, and I love my job, even on the boring days. It is close to home, and it gives my family and me enough money to provide for what we need. I know it is only becuase God has blessed me that I have it.

My fear is letting the bored get to me and let it show. I guess I am just being over-stupid today, but it is a real concern. To be honest all I really want to do is take each day God has given me, and deveote it to Him, and then my family.

If I can live to please God everyday, and then my family second that is my dream!

It is real easy to grab the steering wheel away from God sometimes and say 'I' want to do something. I just need to shutup and trust in Lord. But by talking about it I bring it to the fore front and I can then opennly talk about it to God.

Thank you God, thank you for being all that you are for us and thank you for taking the time everyday to make me a better person.

I love you God! May God bless us all!

You know I was going through my bank account today. I came accross a check card withdraw that I have not noticed before. It said it was from Hampton Cove, AL. A place which I have never been!

Of course right away I started to investigate what was going on. This lead me to email someone that was not even close to being involved with this Hampton Cove, AL. While waiting though on the reply email back I called my back and they told me to get all the information, goto my local branch and fill out a form. So I wrote down the dates and money (about $48 worth, spread out over 2 months between 3 times) Anyway I wrote this down and went into my bank. As I was waiting in line of course I was thinking how and what I could do about this. When I got to the next avaible teller, she asked what she could do for me.
I started to explain to her, and she said: "I Have seen that same withdraw on my account too..." I was stunned. Then she said: "It is for a Sonic in Jacksonville. It is Sonic charging you." I starting to think back and then re-checked. It was sonic, and I had went and put my foot in my mouth.

So when I got back this poor person, who I had chewed out sent a reply telling me how they were sorry but they had no idea what I was talking about. I put my tail between my legs and sent a big "I am sorry" to them. They said no problem.

The moral, of course would be not to jump to conclusions. God really works with you, I mean I am so thankful for that 45 min. goose chase I went on today, because It reminded me that I need to trust in him and not jump to my own mind imigination. To not let things build up so quick, and come up with a hasty, quick and dirty email or thoughts that are negeative.

Thank you God! Thank you for all my blessings, my wife, and kid(s = soon 2 kids), thank you for this wonderful day.

May God bless us all!